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I hope you know that when I say “I love you”, it means that I love you with every ounce of my being.
Hello, handsome! I hope you know that you’re madly in love with me! Let’s cut the small talk and get right to business, yeah?
I’m weird. I’m quirky. I’m crazy and sometimes quite obnoxious. I’m so sassy it actually hurts and I say “fight me” too often for someone who isn’t strong enough to open most doors. I’ll get really mad when you’re right and I’ll fall asleep still on your chest while you’re snoring. I’m forever sleepy. My favorite things are sitting in silence in your company, reading books, and also being anywhere and doing anything with you (I meant, minus Boating). If you like it, I might not and I’ll let you know but I’ll pretend so you can enjoy yourself.
When I say I want two scoops of ice cream I really mean that I want for you to bring the whole container and a couple of spoons so you can eat it with me. My comfort food isn’t sweets or junk, it’s rice or spice. I laugh at my own jokes. A lot. All the time, and I often don’t laugh at your jokes bcoz I don’t understand.
Language barrier is my weakness, I wish I was born in the same culture and language as you are, so we could laugh together with your jokes (you said mostly sarcastic, but I don’t even know the difference between real and sarcastic jokes, but I’ll laugh with you still).
When you catch me staring at you, it means I am so grateful to have a man as amazing as you. My love language is words of affirmation so I’ll get really annoying, asking if you still love me or if you still want me. We could be on our wedding day and I’ll whisper the words “you still like me, right?…” because I NEED to hear it or I start thinking maybe you’ve lost interest. It’s one of my many faults. Yes, I have faults, you do too. But despite them, I will love you with every ounce of my being.
Babe, I’ve been hurt badly! Be patient with me. I won’t want you to touch me certain ways because it reminds me of something painful. I’ve had my heart ripped out of my chest and stomped on and dragged through the mud and thrown back at me. I’ve had heartbreaks that left me in a mess on the floor and I’ve had people treat me like I’m nothing. Don’t worry, I know my worth now. But sometimes it still hurts. I’ve struggled secretly with my mental health and I’ve struggled SO hard with loving myself. But I’ve kept it nicely for myself so that my kids can only know I am happy and strong. Pretending has helped me become that real solid strong single mom that fear nothing & stand tall for herself! Please know that if I text you and say that I miss you, it means my heart is aching in my chest and craving the strongest hug you have. If I tell you I am struggling, remind me to breathe. Tell me how important I am to you. Odds are, I’m overthinking… I’m my own worst enemy… but let me know that I’m not alone. OK?
I am used to people leaving. I’m used to feeling like I was on my own. If I let you in, know that it took so much out of me.
I've solid walled my heart these past years and put thousands guards around it! Only you..and you alone that has broken that wall and kills my thousands guards!
I pray you never get used to me. That you find something new to love every day. That when I wash off my makeup, I simply still charm to you . I pray that you know how incredibly thankful I am for you and all you do and all you have yet to do.
Yes, I PRAY for these things because my faith is the biggest thing about me. I want you to only look up to see me because God told you to. This is important to me.
Know that I am SO proud of you and the man that you are. Know that I love you, even when I don’t like you. And know that when I say “I love you” I mean it from the very bottom of my heart because I truly believe there is no greater man on this earth than you.
Thank you for coming into my life and showing me that I am perfect in every way, shape, and emotion. Thank you for sticking by my side when I freak out over little tiny things and when there is so much to be thankful for. Thank you for being there when I need a person. Thank you for giving me that look of “I can’t believe you” when I do something stupid or dumb, that look that makes me just stop in my tracks.
I want to say I love you. I love the way you look at me. I love the way I can be my self around you, my crazy, stupid, silly, emotional, hard headed self. I love the way I can look in your eyes to know that you love me with all your heart and soul. I love that you appreciate everything I have to give and love me for being me. I love that I can look at you knowing that you will protect me and guard my heart like a thousands guards and assure me that I will be OK in your arms.
I give you so much kudos to really rope me in and beat all my standards I have set in years for guys and what I look for. You’ve destroyed all my strong guards that I’ve built around my heart since my love betrayed. It was the longest time of being a prisoner of my own heart, that has molded me into this strong, fear no one and nothing, confidence overloaded woman! For years, I’ve lost faith that love was really exist. You are a special kind of guy that is for sure. I can remember hoping and praying for you to come into my life one day. A man that will love me, respect me, and appreciate everything I have to give and all my love. I kept my standards high for a reason to find a wonderful guy like you.
I love you handsome… and happily look forward to grow old with you…